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So I love it here. I love what I'm doing, I love school, I love London, I feel like I'm finally accomplishing something, and it's amazing.

But of course nothing can be perfect. I feel so disconnected. I keep trying to talk to my friends at home, and either they're ignoring me, or too busy, or something. It hurts a lot.

I know I left. But shouldn't they be happy for me, and want to stay in touch? I don't understand.

This is hard. Much harder than anything I've done before. I'm all alone in a foreign country. I don't have family here. I don't have close friends. I don't think people understand that. Sure to them it's exciting, but to me it's so lonely.

Whatever.

Anyway, here's some London pictures to make up for all the sad :)

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I miss blogging. I had so much fun, you guys. I guess times change, life goes on, all that.

I've been living in London for three months now. I love it. I love London. I love my friends here. I love my apartment, and my neighborhood, and my neighbors. I love my school, my classes, my professors. I love it all. I'm so glad I did this even though it sometimes feels like I ripped my heart out and left it at home.

I'm going to Vietnam in the summer. It's a research project based in Ho Chi Minh City. After that I think I might travel a bit across SE Asia for awhile. Visit Cambodia. Maybe Laos. Even Nepal.

And then I'll go home. Because while I love London, and I love Europe, it's not home. And I'll get a job, and I'll find a place to live, and I'll turn 30.

If anything makes you evaluate your life goals, it's the inevitability of 30.

Otherwise, things are the same. Same person. Different place.

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I want to post about dramas again :( I haven't even watched one in AGES.

Maybe when I'm in school, and procrastinating. I seem to do best at getting drama reviews done when procrastinating or hating my life. Either/or.

Anyway, I leave in, oh... 2 weeks. I'm terrified. It will be okay, I think. Maybe. I'll be back home in three months for winter break. Three months is cool. I've done that before. Not alone, but definitely in a more difficult place than London (where they actually speak the same language as I do - imagine that!!)

Two small things!!
<3 2NE1 concert!! It was fabulous, and annoying to get to, but whatever. Who doesn't love driving for nine hours alone to New Jersey and back?! I had decent seats, but while they did serve alcohol, I didn't have any because I had to be sober and awake driving back. Bom was pretty, Minji was super awesome and an amazing dancer, and holy shit CL is amazing live. I have very few feelings on Dara.

Second, I'm going to be opening another blog soon-ish, one that will encompass other portions of my life. One that people I know personally can follow to see how my life in London is going. I'll post it up here when it's done.

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So I found a studio apartment in London.

It's pretty tiny (only 20 square meters, which is RIDICULOUSLY SMALL to me, but maybe not so much by central London standards?), but the decor is nice, and it's right in Bloomsbury.

Pros - self contained, nice decor, Victorian building, first floor (second floor to us Americans), two Juliette balconies, random marble fireplace, giant windows, decent flooring, modern, central, 5 minutes frm the school, near cool things, it's in a flat share building so I will be near people in similar situations.

Cons - tiny, tiny, tiny, basically no storage, I have no idea where anything is going to fit, no place to sit and eat, next to a fish restaurant (which is suppose is a hazard of living in a city), EXPENSIVE, might have to deal with other noisy-ass people.

Anyway, I've been spending the last few hours freaking out over the whole thing. Because I freak out about everything. The apartment is lovely, but I keep second guessing myself... It's horrible. I'm mostly freaking out over the size. For reference, I currently live in a moderately sized house. Going from tons of space to basically none is freaking me the fuck out. At least the location is perfect...

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I thought that maybe downloading a LJ app for the iPad would make me update more... We'll see. So what's happening in my world? Nothing terribly exciting, but I'm relatively content, which is cool.

I'm waiting on my grad school application, which is nerve-wracking. Every time I think of moving to London I am overcome with both awesome and terrifying feels.

Work is going surprisingly well. I've basically become team leader by default, which is cool because I get more responsibility and cool science-ey things. The one bad thing is I'm afraid I've turned into one of those popular mean girls. That ever happen to anyone else? Like, I hate myself for doing it, but I'm SUCH a bitch when I'm one of the cool kids. And yet I can't stop. It's so so so weird. I made a pact with myself that I'd try to be nicer from now on. It's hard.

I'm also buying shit like crazy. Not expensive stuff, usually, but as one with a fair amount of "disposable income", I use it to buy pretty things. Like jewelry. And these headphones. And makeup. And bluetooth headsets that make me look like a total douche. And fancy ketchup. I'm a yuppie. I know I'm a yuppie. I've always been a yuppie. Deal.

And now....

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And that is that, meine Freunde.

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